My Limitations

She was upset and she had been crying. I came to know about it a bit later and was waiting for her with a flutter in my heart. She came by and sat down. I looked at her, a bit cautiously as I didn’t want to embarrass her by admitting to fact that I knew that she had been crying. I took a brief glance and her freshly washed face failed to hide her deep emotional eyes. You could tell that she was hurt and had been hurt. I looked away since there was absolutely no way that I could keep looking at her face and still maintain a professional demeanor. My heart broke to see her that way.

As the day went by, I knew I had to say something. So a while later, I moved towards her and grabbed her hand and gave her a friendly squeeze. I let her know that I understood what she was going through and that it would be alright. She had her usual brave face on like nothing affected her and that had things under control. But I guess she knew me better. The day went by and we had stuff to do. As we started getting ready to leave for the day maybe she let her guard down and admitted that she needed some time off. I told her that I hoped that it happened, dreading the time when I had to say goodbye to her.

And then I made her laugh; like I knew I could. I did the actions like a clown, like a joker, that I knew would make her start laughing without fail. And she did – and she probably went back home with a smile on her face. Atleast I could do that….but that’s all I can do.

Always the guy who can make you laugh & smile. Nothing more. Its not in my fate. Always the joker and never the hero!


This goes out to the idiot called Aneesh, who lives somewhere in Fort Kochi. Hey Moron, get a fucking life, you asshole! This numbnuts keeps bothering me about something or the other regarding mobile phones and the industry! I think he worked at my previous company for a little while but he was fired for integrity issues. He is a neighbour of another guy who works with me and got my number from him. Aneesh called me once a long while back to check on possibilities of getting a job at my current company and not knowing much about him then, I gave him a lowdown of what possible questions they could ask during the interview.

He did not show up for the interview but kept calling me to ask some doubt or the other that he has on either mobile phones or the service! What am I, the fucking customer service center? Every time he has a question he calls. About a month back, the other guy tells me that he is fed up of this guy and Aneesh calls me pretending to be someone else (although I understood it was him) and asked me the same stupid questions about an interview in my company. I played along but kept the phone soon.

Yesterday, while I was out buying my medicine before going for some coffee, the moron calls again and says that he has a doubt on a mobile phone. I had to control my temper, since I was at the pharmacy counter but I moved aside and told the moron that I did not want to take his calls and stop treating me like I was a call center. I hope that is the end of that. Get a life you wanker!