Over a period of the past few years I have become more of a loner. I kind of prefer a very small group of people who I can spend my time with. I feel more comfortable with just a small number of folks so I avoid big groups or parties. It’s certain things that have happened in my life that has made me this way. I tend to not like big groups and if I do attend a large function like a party, I look for the exit and an excuse to leave as fast as I can.
I enjoy some company but it depends on the people. Close family and some relatives and a few friends. I am comfortable with them and can be myself and any issues can be dealt with ease and it usually ends with laughter. I don’t have to put on a show and pretend that I am enjoying myself and I am having a good time. Usually large gatherings make me so uncomfortable that I just can’t wait for it to end. I like privacy and intimate gatherings.
Some people have asked me how can you drink alone? I ask them back, don’t you find it more enjoyable to drink alone? It’s soothing, it’s comforting and it’s relaxing.