Apr 23 2012
A couple of nights ago I had this rather sweet dream. But it made me sad & left a longing in my heart once I woke up. The dream I had must have started around the early hours of the morning cause I woke up at around 6:30 am.
I was in a house, with a large living room opening onto the dinning area and the kitchen at one end. The ceiling was quite high and the place was like a half duplex with the stair leading to three bedrooms on the second floor. It was around late evening and I was getting the dinning room ready, placing plates of snacks and a huge pitcher of lemonade with ice and some glasses on the dinning table. As I placed the plates on the table, a woman walked in from the kitchen with a couple of more plates. She was my wife. I can’t say that I have seen this woman in real life or if I have I can’t remember but she is sweet as can be. Pretty, petite, fair and with the cutest nose you have ever seen. It was obvious that I was quite fond of her.
As she passed I got a whiff of her perfume and I wanted to take her in my arms. But we were expecting my cousin and his wife for the evening & she was still getting dinner ready. No time for fooling around. Oh who am I kidding – no way was I not gonna grab her in my arms and kiss her. She protested mildly and then laughed as I kissed her ears and nose and then her lips. She returned my kiss and told me to behave as our guests could be in at any moment. I ran my hand through her hair and kissed her forehead. Soon she went to put the final touches on dinner, while I went to check the scores of the football game on the telly. My cousins reached within minutes and they came in. I remember us having some laughs and some food and enjoying a nice evening. But all throughout the time I kept thinking of being alone with my wife.
After I woke up I had this feeling of having lost something. I missed this woman, I felt as if she was real. In my dream I could actually feel her touch and her body against my skin. I know I am lonely and these kind of dreams are only creating more longing in my heart and increasing my loneliness. Had the ship sailed on me, leaving me stranded behind on a deserted lonely island where it’s just me and my shadow? I dunno.