Express Yourself

Do you love to dance, sing, write, sculpt, paint, or debate? What’s your favorite way to express yourself, creatively?

Well you can see for yourself that I love to write mainly blog and I have been doing it for a long time. I have had this blog since January 1st 2007 and have tried to blog every single day with multiple posts if I can as well. Before this blog I have had two other blogs so I have been blogging since 2002 but mostly on a regular basis since late 2005 when I started feeling like I wanted to use blogging as an outlet for some things that go on in my mind. Even if I am blogging about movies or music or sports, it is a outlet and takes me away from what is bothering me.

Yes I do sing but 99.99% is just me in my bedroom, playing my mp3s and singing along to my favourite rock songs. I have sung in public, solo a couple of times in school and as part of an chorus type thingy one year as well. Then circa 2007, one of the happiest moments of my life, was singing for a an office band – 3 rock songs in the space of about 15 minutes in front of about 200-250 people and getting an enthusiastic (albeit drunk in some cases) ovation. That was a feeling like no other. Other than that the only time I have ever sung is a few weeks back when my training batch, during a little ice breaker session, made me sing a song for a bit.

Prompt from The Learning Network at The New York Times

A Singular Sensation

If one experience or life change results from you writing your blog, what would you like it to be?

I dunno what, at the moment, would make me stop wanting to write my blog. I do not write for anyone hence this blog is mainly for me and anyone who happens to like it and come around to read my stuff and look at my pics and videos, is just icing on top of the already delicious chocolate cake.

Having said the only experience that I wouldn’t mind me not writing my blog, that would be finding the love of my life and being with her. Being together, in love and spending a lot of our free time together – who will have time to blog? Well I still would have time or make the time but I could see myself not wanting to sit in front of my laptop and spend hours typing up stuff if I could instead be with my woman.

Either that or an extremely heavy social life wouldn’t be a problem. But then how would I let people know about what’s happening in my life?

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

Mirror, Mirror, On The Blog

Think of your blog as a mirror: what does it reveal? Consider your blog name, theme choice, design, bio, posts… what does every element tell you about yourself?

Well the mirror might be a bit murky and not too clear for you to see. I mean, I do blog about a whole lotta things, any topic that hits my fancy and I feel like blogging about. My fav sports team, the lunch or dinner I had, things I was thinking about, stuff at work, stuff at home, stuff from around the city, state, country, planet or universe. The music I listen to, the books I’ve read, the movies & tv series I’ve watched. I share a lot of music & other videos and I also share my own videos and photos too.

I blog about whatever I feel like. Some of my personal thoughts & feelings. Some posts I will password protect as I only trust a few people to read them and I will send them the password if they choose to read them. I am comfortable about sharing most of my stuff online, the stuff that I keep away is not for you. So all in all I do like to share a lot of my life with anyone who cares to read about it but there is still some stuff that is not for the public.

The theme – well I like it simple. White background with some structure and colour here and there. That’s about it. You decide what you want to decipher from my stuff.

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

Why The Name?

Explain why you chose your blog’s title and what it means to you.

Back in 2004 or so I heard a song titled Awake & Dreaming by Finger 11, which I love so much and plus I thought it would be a cool name and perfectly describes my character. It’s sad & beautiful at the same time. It is so amazing how I connected & identified with that name instantly as I realized that’s what I do.

As much as I dream and try and capture my dreams in written format, I also stay awake and drift off into dream land, dreaming up vast world’s of the truly magnificent and awe inspiring. The science fiction futuristic world (also inspired by my favourite science fiction shows & films) is beyond amazing and it is a shame that I can’t put it into words that do justice to it. Or if only I could fit a receiver to my brain and broadcast in HD quality the adventures that I dream up, you would all want to be a part of that world.

So that’s why I took the name for the title of my blog as it was so fitting. Ofcourse I also dream of other things as well, equally wonderful to me.

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

On An Even Keel

We all have things we need to do to keep an even keel — blogging, exercising, reading, cooking. What’s yours?

Blogging really is my outlet for keeping me on an even keel. It is my outlet – to let out creativeness and frustration equally. Now I, in no way, consider my writing to be excellent (I do have my shining moments once in a while, though) but for me it is a way to get thoughts onto a canvas if you will. Writing it out helps me to focus on a few things and it’s an outlet for me. Cause there are some things that you can’t discuss with people unless they think like you or even understand the things that you care about as much as you do or even know the stuff that you want to write about.

As you may know, I often write out my dreams (if I can remember them by the time I get to my computer) so I can reflect on them and remember them for ages. Most of us don’t and dismiss the dreams that we have (even scary or weird or disturbing ones) as soon as we wake up. Now I haven’t jotted down each and every dream that I have had (I must have an active imagination because I do have a lot of dreams and I do have some weird ones) and I don’t wish to forget them. Even the ones that make be feel sad as I read about them later, I still treasure them because it’s my mind reminding me of things that I miss and hold dear to myself.

So blogging is the way to go for me. At times I’ve also “voiced out” my frustration and anger in the form of the words that make up a post. It’s my blog and I should be able to do that. If someone doesn’t like it – too fucking bad! You can choose not to read it or not to come back here anymore. That is your freedom of choice. This is mine. This is my piece of internet property, I pay for it, I maintain it and I demand that I let my thoughts out. It’s not harming anyone.

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

Strange Blogger In A Strange Land

What’s the strangest place from which you’ve posted to your blog? When was the last time you were out and about, and suddenly thought, “I need to write about this!”?

Damn it, I can’t think of strange places that I have ever posted to my blog. Well, not very interesting eh, and I blog a lot. A lot more than most people.

Let’s see now, I have blogged from coffeeshops and restaurants on a laptop as well as on my phone. I have blogged from a train and a bus and while riding in a company cab. I have written a blog from an office computer and an office loo (yes, while on the can and using my phone), while in a hospital waiting room and once from a party. And yes from a bar while having a few drinks.

Not too strange I guess. But I am a strange blogger. What place should I try blogging from next? Any suggestions?

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

Switcheroo

If you could switch blogs with any blogger for a week, with whom would you switch and why?

Not for the reasons of wanting someone to write my blog through their eyes and experiences but more for me to experience things that they normally do. I wish I could change places with a few of the bloggers that I like and admire and even am jealous and envious of their lives and where they live.

I would always want something better for myself and my family and hence would want to live in a better place, in a better residence/house and have a better job and better leisure. And better options for things that interest me (sporting games, music & movies) and other things. And I do envy these people’s lives and love reading about them and they things they did, the places they went to and the sights they saw, what they ate or drank and I wish I could also be in their shoes. I love seeing the pics that they share and want to be in those pics and enjoy that life.

I know some of you will say that I have it better than a lot of people and that I should be grateful but really if we didn’t want to better ourselves and our lives that we might as well stop living.

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com

Three Letter Words

Three Letter Words

So apparently we have a prompt that says to give a go at writing a complete post without using three letter words. This is hard to do. However I have decided to give it a shot; having said so I think that it isn’t that tough as I expected it to be. Once I decided to make an attempt it basically is just a different look at ways that I communicate & type.

So it might be a very conscious decision to select each word as I type along and making changes in my mind as well as on keyboard to make sure that we stick to said restriction of avoiding three letter words. Gosh darn it, this is extremely hard, frustrating albeit interesting to do so.

Well I guess I am able to only do so much with this restriction. It is irritating me at this moment so I am ending this blog post at this point. I wasn’t aware of my reliance on three letter words until I started making this attempt at writing a post with such a restriction.

Prompt from The Daily Post at WordPress.com

Parting Is Such Sweet Sorrow

You have the chance to write one last post on your blog before you stop blogging forever. Write it.

So let me start by saying to some readers – this is a fictional post. I am not quitting blogging as I enjoy it way too much and it is such a release for me. This is just an answer to this blog prompt. So here goes :

This is my last chance to reach out to you. Stay good, be nice to each other. Forget about petty differences and man-man differences that lead to quarrels and worse. Who the fuck cares about your beliefs as long as you stick to the law and do right and behave like a decent human being? No amount of bloodshed is worth it, stop fighting and killing and forcing people to believe in the nonsense that you were indoctrinated into.

If you are going to destroy us all just get over with it – one large planet size bomb that only kills humans. No animals or birds please. They deserve to live on in peace. We don’t, not the way that things are escalating.

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com.

Morton’s Fork

If you had to choose between being able to write a blog (but not read others’) and being able to read others’ blogs (but not write your own), which would you pick? Why?

Oh that is a tough one. I love blogging way too much and I also love to be able to read a lot of other people’s blogs and see what they are upto. How can I chose only one?

In the end I guess it will be the first option of only being able to write a blog but not read others’. Because this blog and writing is a great outlet for me. It is a source of not just letting my creative juices flow but it’s also a place where I can vent, rant & rave. I can share my experiences, both good, bad and even some weird ones. Where I relive my greatest regrets and loses and my hopes, as minor as they are, for the future and what’s in store for me. Without I don’t think I would have survived the last few years, especially the last 3-4.

So I’d rather keep on writing my blog and never be able to read anyone else’ blog. Because I need this!

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com.

Happy 8th Blogaversary To Me

Happy 8th birthday to my blog Awake & Dreaming & a happy 8th Blogaversary to me!

Well I am 3 days late (completely forgot with the rush of the past week) – it was actually on the 1st of Januay. I had setup this blog in a day with the help of my cousin (over the phone), who guided me through the process and by night I had the thing setup. Then I installed WordPress and started blogging.

This isn’t my first blog; I first started blogging in 2002, through blogger.com,  when I lived in Calicut and continued with it when I moved back to Cochin. I was an inconsistent blogger, nothing having an internet connection at home & from 2003 till 2006, not having a computer at home. By 2005 I started getting more & more into blogging and I created a new one in blogger.com and called it Count Roshculla : Awake & Dreaming. I started spending more time in internet cafes and hence could blog a lot more consistently. But I always wanted my very own website & domain and I wanted to install wordpress. That was achieved on January 1st, 2007.

I’ve been thinking that personal, non-theme related blogging has been dying out. Several of the wonderful bloggers I used to follow regularly have moved their posts to Facebook for each reach & convenience and their once busy blogs which I used to read quite often are now faded memories. It’s become easier to spend time on Facebook to connect with your 500-600 contacts who may not all be bloggers but share something or the other several times a day. And while I find myself spending hours on FB, I still want to blog regularly and keep maintaining it for as long as I can. Which is probably for a few more years I guess. I won’t ever get tired of sharing my thoughts online.

So happy blogaversary!

Very First Blog Entry Revisited

Now that you’ve got some blogging experience under your belt, re-write your very first post.

I’m not gonna rewrite the first post I’ve written because I’d have to go all the way back to October 10th, 2002! Man it’s been 12 years since I started blogging. 8 of which has been on this website/blog. Man that is a long time to continue something. Although I only started blogging daily in late 2006.

At first when I started blogging I would only post one small post every week or 2 weeks. Usually an update of where I was, what I’d done or any movies I’d seen or music album I had bought. That was the extent of it. I had no idea what it meant to be committed to blog daily and multiple times in a day as I now do back then. I liked the idea of blogs after I first read a few and because I used to keep a diary when I was a teenager, blogging seemed to be a natural progression.

I’ve had two Blogspot blogs before I moved to this site back in January of 2007. This blog has been my outlet and my solace at times. I love writing down my thoughts and ideas, even though I’ve held back from penning down a whole lot of my thoughts, since I don’t want to share those ones. The rest is fine. So…oh well. What the heck, I shall copy & paste my very first blog entry (in a Blogspot account) which was all of one single line paragraph! Here it goes!

Captain’s Blog – 10/10/2002. Roshan has just created his blog. Stay tuned for more.

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com.

ROSHAN’S ELEVEN : Audiobook Narrator For My Blog

Your blog is about to be recorded into an audiobook. If you could choose anyone — from your grandma to Samuel L. Jackson — to narrate your posts, who would it be?

  • William Shatner
  • Morgan Freeman
  • Patrick Stewart
  • Kate Mulgrew
  • James Earl Jones
  • The voice over guy from Honest Trailers
  • Whoppi Goldberg
  • Christopher Lee
  • Jerry Seinfeld
  • Christopher Plummer
  • Bill Clinton

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com.

Wherever I May Blog

Where do you produce your best writing — at your desk, on your phone, at a noisy café? Tell us how the environment affects your creativity.

The best is always at my desk in my bedroom at home. Playing some music on the mp3 player (preferably instrumentals as I tend to pay too much attention to the lyrics), dressed in my undershirt and a lungi with the fan on full and the wind blowing in through the open windows.

But I have also had a great time blogging from a cafe with some delicious frappes and sandwiches to eat and fuel my as I wrack my grey cells to come up with a blog post content or two. I love blogging on my laptop from the cafes or even using my BlackBerry to blog using the amazing WordPress app. I think it depends more on you as a person noticing things and getting inspired to blog about what you have seen or if that gets you to think about something that sparks the creative juices. I’ve blogged from a bus, from a train, at the office and while sitting at a hospital. Anytime anywhere inspiration can hit.

Heck I’ve even blogged while sitting on the throne in the loo! Inspiration can strike you anytime!

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com.

How My Blogging Has Changed

mindbump suggested by Bandpox

“How has your approach at blogging changed since you first started your blog?”

When I first started blogging back in 2002 on Blogger, it was more of updates from my life. Hey I did this, hey I went there or this happened this week. And basically I felt I wanted to start a blog because I had just moved from my hometown of Cochin to Calicut (a city 5 hours away) and living away from my friends and family, I though it was a good & cool way of sharing what I was doing to my people. I even had the tag line “A Cochin boy living in Calicut” for it. I also would just state what I had seen in movies or tv and any albums that I had purchased but no reviews. Also I probably had one or two small posts each week. Yeah, compared to an average of 2 posts a day now and several movie and tv series episode review these days. And I wrote a bit about my life there and the things happening at the company.

Once I came back to Cochin (in 2003) I blogged a bit more but the style remained. Later my blog morphed into a profile of football & hockey players with the odd wrestling bit thrown in as well as football match reports. I wanted to start afresh and thus created a new blog in the 3rd quarter of 2005 which is more in line with what I am doing now. And I follow the adage of one of the first bloggers I started following, Toronto Mike, in that this is my blog and I write about me, everything that I like and love and things that I feel strongly about. And that’s the only way I want my blog, a personal blog, to be unless it’s a themed blog – cooking, photography, travel etc.

I prefer this format for personal blogs. And the blogs that I follow are mostly like that as well.

Morton’s Fork

If you had to choose between being able to write a blog (but not read others’) and being able to read others’ blogs (but not write your own), which would you pick? Why?

What a weird choice! Ok, I’ve been blogging in different websites since 2002. Regularly from 2004. Extremely regularly from 2007 onwards, like daily once or twice. I don’t think I want to stop anytime soon although there are times when I question as to is it worth keeping on writing – who the heck is reading it but me and a handful of faithfuls?

And then I think, this is more or less for me that I am doing it. I find writing therapeutic and I love also logging in and reviewing the movies, tv shows that I watch and the music that I listen to. From time to time I have also made some money outta this blog and that makes it really worthwhile. So the answer is a clear one – I’d pick being able to write my blog but not read others.

But only if the option is given this way. Ofcourse I’d love to keep reading other people’s blogs even though most of my favorites have either stopped blogging and moved to Facebook completely or blog sporadically. But I still keep checking and reading the ones that do. But there is no way that I’d give up my own humble blogging.

Prompt from the Daily Post at WordPress.com

If I Could Rename My Blog…

If I could rename my blog…

Back in November 2006 I decided to purchase my very own URL for my blog (which I bought 2 months later on an 1st 2007) and I had a lot of time to think as to what name & address I wanted for my blog/website. I had a few options in front of me and went back & forth trying them out loud and thinking as how they sounded. An hour before I registered the name I was down to three choices : a) Awake & Dreaming b) RoshanGKMenon and c) RGKonline.

As you know I settled on Awake & Dreaming . org (because .com was not available and plus they had a discount for .org URLs that week) and I have no regrets about the name as that pretty much describes what the blog and I am – I do day dream a lot. I tend to drift off into my made up universe when I am either alone or traveling in a bus, car etc. I also always go into this universe when I lie awake in bed just before I go to sleep. So no regrets and also it’s the name of an awesome song by Finger Eleven, a band that I like a lot.

If I wanted to have another name, like purchase another url and also have it point to my blog, would I go with RGK Online? Or something else? I’m not sure but at the moment this is it and I love it. My annual renewal of the webspace is up in a week and I will be adding another year. The URL was grabbed in November which is when it is up.