Lonely For Valentine’s Day

What are your plans for Valentine’s Day, Rosh?

Well I am working from 9:30 pm till 6:30 am the next day but most of the day is wide open to do….absolutely nothing!

I will probably just watch a movie after I wake up and have had coffee. No lunch as I have been doing for these kinda shifts where I wake up late in the afternoon. A snack with my coffee, probably biscuits or something light like that as I watch the movie. Then onto the internet for Facebook browsing, watching Youtube etc. Dinner at home before hailing an Uber to get to the office.

Nothing else. I will not have things in red scattered around. I would love to be able to have someone to buy those Valentine’s day special chocolates and cards and gifts for. Have a nice dinner for two in a romantic setting, candles, soft music, blah blah blah. It’s been so long since I’ve made a woman feel special or being felt special myself.

Graveyard aka Vampire Shift

So I am back to doing a late night or overnight shift. You also call it a graveyard shift or as I love to call it the vampire shift!

This week I will be doing the 9:30 pm to 6:30 am shift. I also did it for last Thursday & Friday. The last two hours of which I will be the only one from my team and it can get lonely. But I have set it up so that I get some of my work done for 90 of those minutes and that is usually the work that I like to do without much of a bother in between. That works out for me that none of the others will be there at that time.

The last 30 minutes of the shift will be when I take the second 30 minute break of the day. I have not been taking my full 60 minutes break the last week but I guess I can do that this way. That 30 minutes, which will be from 6 am onwards will be when I go to the cafeteria and get my breakfast and coffee. Works out fine.


Who Is The One Person That You Definitely Couldn’t Live Without? And Why?

None. I do not believe in this sentiment that you cannot live without someone or some people in your life. You may not want to live without that someone or some people, but you can. You do not need anyone else but yourself to live and survive, as long as mentally & physically you aren’t dependent on anyone for your sustenance & daily activities.

That’s a far cry from what I used to believe many years ago. But that’s the truth as far as I can make it out to be. I could go on until my time is up without anyone in my life. As long as my needs are met – like food, drink, entertainment, clothing, shelter and the other basic needs that most people need – I do not need to be dependent on anyone else. I could go on until the day that I die.

It might not sound very romantic or sweet or feel goody but it’s the truth.

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My Fav Season

Write about your favorite season.

Despite the pleasant few weeks we had in late December and the first 2 weeks of January of lower temperatures, my favourite season is the monsoon. I love the rains, as long as I do not get too wet or catch bad colds or fevers. I love the monson seasons because that means as long as it rains we have cooler days and nights and less mosquitoes.

The mosquitoes go away during the heavy rain falls and that means, cool nights sleeping between the sheets. I love falling asleep to a nice heavy rainfall (as long as we don’t see the awful floods we had last year) and it’s a great feeling. The earth gets a cleansing and a bath and it gets refreshed.

Plus the cold rains are awesome for grilled chicken and drinking vodka!

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5 Days To Live

If You Were Told You Were Going To Die On Friday And Today Was Monday, What Would You Do?

Hmm, 5 days to live. Dying on a Friday. What would I do?

I honestly do not know. Quit my job ofcourse. Go to a nice hotel and rent a good room and relax for a couple of days and enjoy their room service. Eat at all my favourite restaurants and drink a whole lotta booze.

Hey, maybe that is what kills me? LOL!

And then come home and sell most of my stuff. On Friday, I’ll say goodbye to the people I love and a big FUCK OFF! to the people I hate.

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Plan For February

I’ve wished for it, I’ve thought about it many, many times but I’ve never done it. So the plan for February is to take a few days off and book a room in a nice hotel or resort and chill out for a few days. I’ve wanted to get out of here for a while, really get away from home and especially from work and to unplug from these two worlds. I really could use some time away.

The folks at home and the BS I have to take at work. Well, who wouldn’t want to get away from work right? I now have some money and therefore booking a nice, air-conditioned room in a nice hotel or resort with a big comfy bed and a large tv and enjoy some room service and not worry about much other than what tv show or movies to binge during that time. Or take a book with you and just read it from cover to cover. Maybe two books!

So I dunno if I can do it for 2 or maybe 3 days but definitely 2 at the least. If I get a good deal then it can be 4 days. But 3 will do.

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14 Hours

Sleepy Wednesday. Reached home at 4:30 am went to bed by 5:30 am and woke up at 11am. Had to go into work early today, 3:30 pm for some silly reason! I was tired. So tired that I was falling asleep in the session we had from 3:30 pm till 5pm.

We then went for coffee and snacks and went back to work. 14 hours at work. What for? This could have been sorted out much earlier. 14 hours! I was so tired but by the time I reached home and changed my clothes I couldn’t sleep so I watched a couple of episodes of Friends while I had a snack. Then I could go to sleep.

I slept by 6:45 am and woke up after 1pm. It felt though that I could have just turned on my side and gone back to sleep for another 2-3 hours. Atleast a couple of my packages from Amazon came in today – 1 from the US and 1 from the UK. Happy about those. Back to the grind in another 2.5 hours.

Buying Gifts

I am not good at buying presents. I always fret too much and cannot buy anything that I like and think will be a good gift for someone. Luckily for me, we don’t really give presents here on birthdays or another occasion like a holiday / festival (unless you count getting clothes on Onam or Vishu) like Christmas and most Western countries. I would be terrible at it!

The last few times I have bought gifts were for Christmas / New Year and Secret Santa type of gifts. I bought a wallet and a specific coffee mug for a guy I barely knew at work in 2017. This season it was a colleague I know well but not enough to know what she likes and dislikes. Someone else suggested a clutch or books as she is a reader but I don’t know what books she likes and I don’t know anything about women’s handbags. So I went on my usual type of gift when it comes to girls. I got her a teddy bear kinda thing (it was a dog) and she loved it a lot.

Someone who is very close to me is getting married on Feb 1st and I wanted to get her a gift. I won’t be able to go for the wedding as I will be working. But I kept searching online for gifts that I could buy for her. Although I looked at vases and floor lamps, I finally settled on this watch that you see here. I hope she likes it!

Eagerly Awaiting Packages

So I have a few boxsets coming up in Amazon UK purchases. As I live in India the time it takes for the packages to ship from the UK and be received at my end. My first 3 packages were done by DHL and it’s pretty easy to track them but my current package is via Royal Mail and this one does not have a tracking update or a tracking id. How the fuck am I gonna know where it is?

So I have the Jurassic Park trilogy, the 5 Spider-Man films before the recent recasting and reboot as well as the 3 dvd set of the 80s scifi show V. I can’t wait for it to come but it’s due in 5 days or so and I hope I do get it. I also have the 6 movie boxset of Planet of The Apes which I bought from an Irish seller on eBay which is also due in the next week or so. That too does not have tracking.

And finally from Amazon.com I have the 6 season box set of my favourite sitcom Corner Gas. This one has a tracking id from Imex but no update. What the fuck is it with these carriers? It’s delivery on planet earth not in a galaxy far, far away!

Cold Cancelled My Weekend Plans

The weekend was a waste for the most part. I wanted to go to Lulu mall or go out for lunch/dinner with my cousin and even perhaps get a haircut. But mostly due to the weather the past few days – it was a bit too cold in the mornings compared to what we are used to – I developed a cold and a phlegm congestion.

So anyways, I was late arriving back home on Saturday morning after work and hence woke up late. Plus I had the bad cold so I decided to rest at home for the entire day and watch Venom in the afternoon and chill for the rest of the day. I drank plenty of coffee and my cousin Roshni came over to visit. So we had a nice evening chatting. My sister, nephew and niece were also at home and we later ordered some food and while they watched a movie in the living room, I went back to bed for a while, until it was football time.

Sunday morning I was too tired and unwell so I cancelled the afternoon lunch plan with Sujith and thought I would feel better by evening for a light dinner and grocery shopping but I cancelled that too. And that was my weekend as I couldn’t do anything else except watch a whole lot of Angel episode and a few episodes of Friends.

The Dude Wore Black

Black pants. When it comes to pants/trousers/slacks or whatever you call them, I only wear black. One – it goes with everything. And two – I think that it’s true for fat guys like me, black just makes it look better or not that bad.

That’s plain and simple the main reason as to why I wear only black pants. I also happen to like black as it just seems to be better but mainly it’s the last reason. I therefore also prefer to wear black shoes or maybe a dark brown because of that. Dark shoes go well with black pants. Since I am obese, I stopped wearing & buying jeans. If I ever lose enough weight then I will get back to buying and wearing jeans.

Funnily enough, I don’t like black jeans. Blue, light blue, dark blue. I used to have a dark green jeans which I liked – it didn’t go well with everything but it was cool. I also had an ash or grey colour jeans which was rocking. I hope I get some someday.

Happy 12th Blogaversary

Happy 12th birthday to my blog Awake & Dreaming & a happy 12th Blogaversary to me! I can’t believe that it’s been 12 years already.

It was on the 1st of January that I setup this blog in a day with the help of my cousin (over the phone), who guided me through the process and by night I had the thing setup. Then I installed WordPress and started blogging. I then spent many days trying out various themes; I think this one here is the 30th or so theme that I have tried out.

This isn’t my first blog though; I first started blogging in 2002, through blogger.com, when I lived in Calicut and continued with it when I moved back to Cochin. I was an inconsistent blogger, nothing having an internet connection at home & from 2003 till 2006, not having a computer at home. By 2005 I started getting more & more into blogging and I created a new one in blogger.com and called it Count Roshculla : Awake & Dreaming. I started spending more time in internet cafes and hence could blog a lot more consistently. But I always wanted my very own website & domain and I wanted to install WordPress. That was achieved on January 1st, 2007.

After 12 years I have made quite a bit of money with this blog. I am so proud of what I have done, especially in the last year or so. This blog is a big part of me and I want to continue through for several more years to come.

2018 Is Almost Done

  • I celebrated the New Year in the usual style – quite day in listening to music, watching Youtube and relaxing
  • I decided to dip into my savings and finally get a higher end & expensive cell phone and bought the OnePLus 5T
  • We had a wonderful and mostly entertaining World Cup with France winning it all.
  • I turned 42 in August
  • We had that devastating flood in Kerala that caused so much property damage and some lives
  • Lost an uncle in September, when my mom’s second eldest brother passed away
  • I bought my first ever tv! I’ve usually watched on my family’s tv and for the last 10 years never watched anything on a tv except for a little bit here & there. But I bought a new smart tv.
  • I started my collection of dvds, bought a display shelf and have a good growing collection now.
  • Started getting more online work and it’s paying good.
  • I also started a collection, just 2 now, of Funko Pops. I don’t see that as becoming a huge collection but a few is ok.

One Wish To Rule Them All

If you could wish for just one thing this holiday season, what would it be?

Something that has come true even if it is only for a limited time. I have always wanted to work from home and make a lot of money doing something I like and enjoy doing. I want to avoid going to an office with a few thousand people and report to corporate and all the BS that comes along with it. Ofcourse I like the steady pay check that comes along with that.

But I hate the daily commute, the late hours and working in the evening to late night hours. I don’t want that anymore. I would love to be able to sleep in / wake up late, work for sometime and then watch movies in the afternoon or take a nap. Then work a little bit more and then goof around till dinner time. Watch movies or tv shows till late night and then sleep. And still get paid a whole shitload of money.

That dream came true for a while when I got some online blogging work that pays me a lot (considering it’s GBP / USD converted to Indian Rupees) for so little work. That was amazing and it’s not exactly done. I may get some more work for a while longer but I wish it was permanent so I can do this for the rest of my life. That would be my one wish.


Holiday Meals

So with the Christmas eve and now Christmas day behind us (almost as it’s 9:30 pm on the 25th as I type this), I though I’d share some of what I and my family ate & did during this holiday period. On Monday the 24th, I woke up early and had coffee by 7pm and later at 9am I had my breakfast of 4 dosas with sambar and more coffee. Lunch was light and simple, just some rice with veggies and a bit of fish curry.

I watched The Minions movie and then watched Star Trek First Contact on my tv – which was awesome by the way – and took a light nap. In the evening after coffee and light snacks, my sister came over with her three kids. So we ordered some food – I ordered a shawarma for my niece and two piece alfahm chicken for me with kuboos and mayo. My sister ordered butter chicken & chilli chicken with appams for my dad, mom, my two nephews and herself.


I also had two beers with my meal, which was delicious by the way. I had two kuboos with the alfam chicken and drank a Sterran beer plus a Kingfisher. The alfaham was great though once it isn’t that hot you do need more mayo as it dries up while trying to eat it with kuboos. After the dinner, I was back in my bedroom on my computer. At night I watched Home Alone, a Christmas movie and one of my 3 ultimate Xmas movies (the other two being Gremlins and Die Hard) and then 2 episodes each of Z Nation and Angel and fell asleep by 4 am.


This morning I woke up by 11 am and just had coffee. By 1pm my sister and her kids came over for lunch and my sister had made a simple egg fried rice while dad and mom made chicken curry. We ate our fried rice and chicken curry and at the end we had some mango & chocolate chip ice cream which my sister had bought from a store on their way here. Nicely filled I went back to lie down and watched Star Trek Insurrection. I even managed a short nap after the movie. More coffee and chips and then more internet until dinner time which was chappathi and the left over chicken curry.

The Perfect Road Trip

How to you plan a perfect road trip?

I don’t go on road trips and I don’t drive either so if I had to go on a road trip then it would first mean that I would have to join one person or more as we set out on the road. There would have to be a nice spacious car or vechicle like a mini bus or van. I don’t like small cars as I am a big guy and I need space.

There would have to have a nice ac in the vehicle and a nice stereo system with USB support so I can play a huge collection of my fav rock songs. What’s a road trip without playing the classics? Bottles of water, juice or some other soft drinks and some snacks are needed too. Nothing too messy but delicious food is needed on the long road. Wear loose fitting clothes as well.

I would also plan the trip in such a way that I would be able to hit hotels along the way so I can sleep in a decent bed every night.


Budweisers & Food At Golden Dragon

After a long while, my cousin Sujith and I went to Golden Dragon on Saturday afternoon. Our meets have been lesser & lesser this year and with me preferring to stay in and relax at home over the weekend with the folks and order in it was inevitable that our outings will be sparse. We also planned a couple of meetings which fizzled out due to either he or me not feeling well or other things coming up.


This time we just had to meet and despite the fact that I only woke up at 11 am and met him by 1pm. I also have to work at 3:30 am – because of some fuck up at work – but I still was gonna go to eat some good food and drink a couple of beers with my cousin. We met at Golden Dragon and ordered Budweisers and started with shredded pork and chicken lollipops, both of which were excellent.


We then had some pepper lamb and more beef in oyster sauce, which was the only dish that wasn’t excellent because it was a bit too salty. One more beer each as we discussed a bit about work, music, movies and Star Trek. After that it was a short walk to Milanos to have banana splits which we didn’t know they had on their menu.


And the banana splits were amazingly rich and sinfully delicious and full. Excellent sundaes!

5 Things I Know For Sure But Can’t Prove

  1. A good portion of written history is falsified or exaggerated. History is written by the survivours, victors of war and by the ruling class in several eras of humankind. Some of them must be bogus.
  2. I don’t believe a god or gods exist. I am an atheist so I will say that I don’t believe in any god. Not one. But if you ask me to prove that none exists, I can’t say that for sure. But while I am unconvinced of what religious people tell me, can there be such beings (not exactly what current religions claim but different) around? Nope. I am pretty sure that none exist.
  3. Politicians and religious institutions are in bed and they are fucking the rest of us dry. They are in cahoots and they know their claims are false but they want power and they don’t mind stomping on you to get it.
  4. Good music, created by creative minds, composed by artists who have mastered their instruments is dying. In a couple of decades we won’t have new good music at all, just the synthezied, rap, hip-hop and pop drivel. And finally modern music will die off. Which is why in a lot of scifi shows & movies classical music is all that they play. It’s all that is left.
  5. There is intelligent life out there on other worlds, other planets, moons and galaxies. Way too many planets and galaxies out there for it not to be so. Someday we will make first contact. There has to be aliens other there. C’mon we aren’t that special!