Visions Of Roses & Wine

There are many such like me. I am not naive enough to think that I am the only lonely guy on Feb 14th. But in a lot of cases even if they are lonely now, there is the hope that they will eventually find love or maybe, if you are Indian or in some other like-minded cultures, are hopeful that your parents will find someone for you and that marriage will eventually blossom into love. I do not have that.

I am 43 years old and even though at the age of 30 I was asked by my parents if I wanted them to look out for a marriage proposal for me I said no. I do not believe in taking that route and I never have. So at this age I don’t see any hope of finding that someone and falling in love and then taking that next step to propose marriage and then actually tie the knot. And in my mind I know that many years ago – probably by the time I was around 35 years old – I kind of “accepted” that I will be alone and will end up alone for the rest of my life and that I would die alone.

I am semi-dating someone. It’s not serious by any stretch of the imagination. It started out as me going on a “date” for fun to being the desperate attempts of me pretending that I am not alone and looking forward to the few times that I am actually with this girl. But I still feel lonely and infact each time I do go and spend a few hours with her, I feel even more lonelier because I have to come back to my singlehood. See what I mean?

Anyways, for those of you who have someone in your life, have a Happy Valentine’s Day.

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