What would I say to my 16 year old self if I had a chance to go back in time and meet up with him..err me? Plenty so listen up buddy boy 16 year old Roshan.
First things first; 16 was when thing started to go bad for you so pay close attention. You had no skills or talent to go for engineering / science and hence should not take 1st group in Pre-degree. Just because the cousins immediately older than you all were going for it, doesn’ mean that you should too. Instead you should have listened to good advice and opted for Economics or Commerce or Arts. That would have been a more sensible option but instead you let yourself go where you should haven’t.
Next you should have just swallowed your pride and gone to Maharaja’s college or Bharat Matha and not gone to St.Paul’s college. That was the wost choice you could make. You made the wrong selection in courses and college and now you also made the wrong choice in group of friends. They led you the wrong path. Perhaps not intentionally but yeah it was the wrong group to be with. Look at what happened in the end; they all managed to scrap through and you were left in the lurch. And within a few months you were no longer friends with them and they forgot all about you.
You also let your heart & hard on rule your head and fell for the wrong girl. 18 months of chasing & pining after her, you also lost some pride along the way but you did get her in the end. You thought it was forever but 3.5 years later it went down the drain. And for awhile you lost your pride, your wits along with your virginity and you were obsessed. Believe me that although it will hurt like hell and consume you like a black plague for years you will be glad that you didn’t end up with her. That was a disaster waiting for to happen and I’m glad that she & I were history by the time I was in my early 20s.
If only you could avoid all this stuff, you would be fine in time.
Ahh if only we could turn back time huh? But think of it this way, maybe things could have been worse. Thats what comforts me. Life is full of trials and tribulations, and i guess as long as we learn from our life lessons, its all good. Sometimes i wonder how life would have tunred out had we not moved to India for those brief few years, but i wouldnt have formed bonds with certain key family members like urself. I wouldnt change that for the world. You win some and you lose some. Life eh? I love you Roshaaaan Kishaaaaan xxxxxx
I still would have changed these things if I could go back in time. This and several other things.
And I love you and miss u too Sandhya. Very much.