I heard her voice today while I was at work. I wasn’t expecting it and therefore she caught me off guard. I saw that there was a call from an area that I did not recognize and I picked it up. I heard her voice and she took a moment to understand that it was me speaking on the other line. It took me a moment as well to make out that it was her. She wanted some data from one of the other members of the team. So I handed over the phone.
She seemed surprised to know that it was me on the phone. Well, honey, you did call my extention. What did you expect? I thought that I would be ok by now. It has been 8 months since I saw her and 7 months since we stopped speaking. Oh that – we were discussing something and apparently she thought that I was blaming her for something which wasn’t true. Then she treated me badly because of it. So I got angry and I decided that I wouldn’t talk to her or want to have anything to do with her. Later she spoke to a girl in my team and told her to tell me that she isn’t angry with me.
The hell with that, I was angry with her and I didn’t want anything to do with her. A few days back, I was surprised to see that she had ‘accepted my Facebook invite’. It took me a while to realize that I had sent that invite months ago, when I was still on talking terms with her. I immediately deleted and blocked her id.
download g mt greenwich mean time dvd The thing is, I thought I was over it. Hearing her voice today let me know that I wasn’t where I thought I am. It still hurts. I guess that I am not exactly over her. And therein lies the problem. If I can’t move on, there’s no way that I can try to pursue any kind of romantic thing with someone else. I’m not quite ready yet, even though I sure as hell want to be ready. I guess I need more time.