January 11, 2011 | Awake & Dreaming

Fallen for the wrong girl back when I was 16
Chosen Science group instead of Arts or Commerce for college
Got in with the wrong crowd during my time in St.Paul’s college (long story)
At the age of 23-24, after being selected in the short list for a job in Bangalore, I chose not to go to that city for the final interview as I wasn’t sure that I could afford to go there and stay on my own expense while I attended the final interview. I was desperately broke then and didn’t want to risk going all the way there and staying for 2 days and then not get the job. Hindsight being 20/20, I’m sure that I would have been selected if only I had taken the plunge and gone to Bangalore at that time. It would have been worth it and my life would have been a whole lot different because of it.
Been as casual about my studies at the time I should have concentrated on studies
I wish I could have the guts to stand up to a few corporate bullies at one time when I was being harassed a lot. Now I that I have stood up and stated that I won’t take it anymore, it feels so fucking good.
I wish I had taken up my friend’s suggestion and moved with him and a couple of others to Goa. I was 26 and at the time it sounded risky but fun. It would have been an adventure.
At times I wish I hadn’t gone to the school in Thrikkakara that I joined at the age of 11. Ofcourse at that age it really isn’t my choice as I’m just a kid. But perhaps if I had voiced an opinion my dad would have put me in a different school and things would have been better. I dunno; I’m sitting on the fence for this one I guess.
Among a few projects, I wish I hadn’t given up on writing my novels. I had enough material for two novels and I also keep putting off my big Scifi novel. The latter is mostly the fact that the fantastic images & ideas in my brain just can’t easily be translated into words onto pages. It’s easier in images that run in my mind. However I really want to res-start the Scifi novel series. This is just for me, I don’t care if no one else likes it or it never gets read by anyone other than a handful of faithful friends.
Sometimes I wish I hadn’t been born!