While on the bus ride to the office I noticed this woman standing just a couple of feet in front of me. I must admit that I have a wide variety of tastes when it comes to women. I find all kinds of women to be attractive and desirable – maybe a little too much :) Or let’s put it this way, where most guys I know will dismiss a woman as being plain and/or not pretty, I will usually find something about them that makes them seem really beautiful in my eyes. I know, I’m weird that way.
So back to this woman; I watched as she climbed into the bus and took a position right in front of me. She was dressed in a churidhar and had a brown handbag. She didn’t find a seat and so stood as she paid for her ticket and then stood facing me sideways. I looked at her and tried not to be too obvious about it and thought “There’s a nice looking woman”! She was smooth skinned but not too fair skinned. She wasn’t wearing any makeup, except for a bindi on her forehead. She had these small earrings and a thin gold chain around her neck and a lady style thin watch. No sindoor – check! No wedding ring – check! No mangalsutra – check! She wasn’t too thin, infact I’d say that she has a nice body. As she turned I couldn’t help but stare at her backside which, when another woman passed her by and her churidhar top was pulled a bit, was accented for just a minute and I must say – nice, round rump!
So yes I notice all these things, without looking like a lecherous old goat. Age wise I’d say that she’s probably around 31-33. As she turned her back to me, I did see a stray grey hair or two. I am greying at the sideburns myself. As I kept looking at her she began to look more & more desirable to me. I wondered what kind of a person she is, what were her likes and dislikes. Does she like cats and dogs? I looked at her arms and wondered what it would be like to kiss them and to feel them around me, holding me. I wondered what it would like to talk to her and if she would like my silly jokes and antics. She would have to be the more stern & serious one if we were in a relationship, cause I’d be the funny one! And I just know it that no matter what, I would be able to make her smile & laugh – cause I’m cute that way! I’ve not been able to share my life with any woman yet – wake up next to each other, make coffee and breakfast, head out to work together, plan the day/week/month’s shopping, come back home, make dinner & eat it while talking about our day. Watching tv together – oh I’d love to have a woman that I could introduced my favourite stuff to! Have her be part of my special world. And ofcourse, going to bed at night, having that warm body next to me.
I want that. And as she got down at her stop I took a long last glance until the bus started moving again and I could no longer see her. And I sighed a deep sigh and came back to reality, getting down at my stop and came to my office building. But the longing is still there in my heart.