And The List Becomes Shorter

So my family is abuzz with the news and finalisation of my cousin’s wedding. He is getting married at the ripe old age of 42 on August 19th. It’s his first time getting married but he has been looking or rather his parents have been looking for a very, very long time. I guess for the past 10 years or so. But because they look into stuff like astrology (jadhagam as we call it here) and because he has a hard to match horoscope he has had no luck in finding a bride the tradional way. This time it got sorted out but I am not sure if they tried to match horoscopes but it is still an arranged marriage after the families met.

So that’s one more down and just a cousin who is 42 nd myself left unmarried in our family of first cousins. Well there is my baby cousin but she is not yet 23 so she doesn’t count. She won’t even consider a wedding until she turns 25 or 26. My cousin who moved to the US in 1999 and turned 42 in February is looking like an eternal bachelor like me and most probably a reluctant bachelor – also like me. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to find the right woman but it’s a factor of things that have prevented me from getting hitched – mostly because I feel like I might be rather low on the totem pole.

I won’t go the arranged married route, with or without horoscope as I don’t believe in such stuff. I haven’t found a lover though I have had a girlfriend or two back in…..well it seems so long. Me being overweight and well…ugly could also be a major reason. there’s a few other things also in the mix, stuff I dunno if I want to put on a blog out there as they are deeply personal and I have never told anyone else about it. I am lonely and been lonely for ages and perhaps that is what I have to resign myself to. A life of loneliness. I am even lonely when I am in a group of people.

I guess not everyone finds that special someone. Here’s to us bachelors and bachelorettes. I hope you do find someone to call your own someday.