Something I Can Never Forgive Myself For

I will never ever forgive myself for being the reason why a woman had a terrible experience with her love life. When I was 21 I joined NIIT in Ravipuram for a 2 year Diploma Course in Computer programming. It was a then very prestigious course and 2 or 3 year (in which the 3rd year was setup as an internship at a IT or IT related company) ensured you very given the best options of getting a good career in the field. That’s not important, what is important is that out of the 4 semesters, 6 months each along with the exams for that semester, my 1st one was one I want to forget about.

I never had a problem in making friends. So when I joined and I met the 13 other people in the same batch, I quickly made some friends. There were only 3 girls in the batch and our faculty member was a lady as well. I made good friends with all of them and enjoyed my time with these guys. However, one of the guys had a crush on one of the girl in the batch. She was very close to me so he would often ask me to kinda big him up to her so he could make his move. At first I thought he was sincere and so I did. And it worked. Pretty soon they became a couple.

However I later one found out that he was a total asshole and was into just using her for his needs and would dump her after a while. I kind of go to know about this during the end of the semester. I took a break of a month from my course as I would undergo an operation that would require me to rest at home for about 4 weeks. This meant I would change batches and join another batch for the remaining 3 semesters. When I came back I joined those guys and made a lot of good friends. I quickly distanced myself from the guy, especially since the girl never became good friends with me again.

We did speak but I got to know that he would brag to his friends about getting to “use and abuse her” (his words) and I never saw her after she left the institute post completing her course. I tried to keep in touch with her but she obviously saw me as a responsible party in what was a terrible thing in her life. I guess I don’t really blame her.

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